I want to have someone I can hold hands with and spend endless hours talking with about drum corps.
Anonymous asked: How old are you?
I’m 20 years young! Turn 21 next august :p how about you annon?
And once again, I’ve fallin into this sulken depression. No one has been interested in talking to me in months. Am I that atrocious? That ugly? Stupid? Weird? I just want someone to talk to to help me forget about my shitty days. There is only so much smiling and putting on a fake front you can do before you break down and just cry in a ball while holding a pillow pet I got from an ex. I don’t even know what to do anymore. The only time I feel happy anymore is at rehersal. Because I don’t have time to think about shit. I just try so hard and give my all right out of the gate when I’m interested in someone. I swear I do the cutest shit ever. Its just that people don’t even give me a fucking chance.. I don’t even know what happy is. I honestly have been void of the true feelings of emotions since I was like 13. I miss butterflies in my tummy, I miss loving, being loved, sorrow, joy.. I just don’t know what or how to feel anymore. I ride my dirt bike as much as I can because it gives me the feeling of getting away and knowing I couldn’t be caught. Like I could do anything.. my mind is set. I’m getting this motorcycle and I’m going and never coming back.. if only it worked that way. Its getting to the point where friends just aren’t quite enough. I doubt anyones gonna read this much of this but oh well. It won’t be any different then people in my every day life..
I cry when I’m angry and that’s the very worst thing because you’re trying to act tough and mean and instead you cry
It’s scary to find someone that makes you happy. You start giving them all of your attention because they’re what makes you forget everything bad that’s going on in your life. They’re the first person you want to talk to in the morning and the last one before you sleep just so you can start and end your day with a smile. It all sounds great to have that someone, but it’s scary to think about how easily they could just leave and take that happiness away too when they go.
i apologise to every puppy that i havent patted yet and i’ll be there soon pal
Do you ever just see the first sentence of a text message and just think “oh fuck no I do not have time for this shit”
You know what’s worse than arguing? Silence. not even hearing from them ever again. Not knowing if they miss you or even think about you. Yeah. Silence, that shit hurts.
please stop being cute it makes my heart sad because i can’t nap with you
have you ever caught someone staring at you and wondered what they’re thinking about like if it’s something positive or negative if it’s a passing thought or a long internal string of things if they’re even thinking about you at all or you just happen to be in the line of sight while their mind drifts off about something completely unrelated
"What if I told you God is gay?" Elliot Darrow, a student at the University of North Carolina, absolutely kills it with this slam poetry performance about Christianity and homosexuality at the College Unions Poetry Slam Invitational back in April. The video’s been up for a while, but it’s making the rounds again and certainly worth a second watch. (via The Advocate)
nope, I’m not crying
i think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy
because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless
and they don’t want anybody else to feel like that